“I’m home. I feel bad. I’m a dick. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, you’re such a sweet man and I treated you like a dick. ”
“Yay. You’re home safe. Wait what? How did you treat me like a dick?”
“I’ve been really cold towards you.”
“I understand, but why honey?”
“IDK I’m depressed I guess I’m just not feeling anything anymore.”
“I love you. IDK I guess our time apart changed me and I just feel lost in general with life and love.”
“Are you breaking up with me?”
I feel bad because I’m cold to you and I don’t want to be.”
“What can I do to thaw your heart to me?”
“IDK and that’s the problem”
“But last time you were here you were the same until we had sex and then you were back to your old self.”
“I know but it’s just weird to feel like that today it was worse and I was just not myself with you at all.”
“Maybe you’re just tired of me.”
“I don’t think that. I think we fell off because we were apart for like forever.”
“But we’re seeing each other more now. We’re doing that. Making an effort. My words today told you how much I admire and love you and how precious you are to me. You’re the best girlfriend I’ve ever had.
“You’re the best man and boyfriend ever. We are making efforts now. I don’t know.
“If I’m the best, then why are you treating me like this dear?”
“I don’t mean to. I feel like a horrible person.”
“Please don’t. I love you so much. You’re a wonderful woman. I’m sad.
“I don’t want you to be sad. I feel like I made you sad. You make me to be such a wonderful girlfriend but not when I’m cold to you.”
“I’m patient and understand if you’re not always your cheery self. You have a lot on your plate and have many challenges in your life. I’m just happy to see you and spend time with you. Warm or cold is fine because I love you Cherie.
“Yea, but those aren’t excuses and you are always happy to see me and I need to reciprocate the feelings, I love you.
“If you’re not feeling the same for me Cherie. I will have to understand. I’m sad. I don’t want to lose you but if you’ve lost your feelings for me I have to understand.”
“Please stop saying that. I don’t want you to be sad. I was happy and okay last time we were together.”
“Will you see me again in two weeks so we can be together? I don’t want to lose my girlfriend that I adore.”
“Yes. I love you too and I don’t want to be without you.”
“Yes. Thank you. I need you in my life Cherie. I love you honey. I’m upset. I don’t want to lose you.”
“I don’t want you to be upset. I love you.”
“Please don’t leave me.”
“I won’t. I’m not.”
“I love you so much Cherie. I’ll do anything to get through this. I need you in my life.”
“I love you and I’m glad you’re in my life.”
“Okay, so can we work on this? I’m just afraid you don’t feel the same passion you once had for me. But I love you like I did the first time we were together.”
“Yes. We can work on this. I love you and I want us to be together always.”
That really struck me.
“Me too!” I’ll do anything to keep you happy, honey. I love you so much.”
“I know, I love you if you weren’t such a perv I’d say I’d do anything too!”
My baby’s back.
“Aww! I love you more and I’m not a perv to you honey. I adore you.”
“I know, but your mind wanders.”
I love that.
“Baby, I need you. I need you in my life darling.”
“I need you too. You keep me sane.”
That’s a solid post.
“I complimented you so much today because you’re so beautiful and smart and wonderful. I love you and treasure you so much in my life.”
“You’re amazing, smart, patient and a gentleman and so much more. I value your love and your meaning in my life.”
“Thank you dear. I feel better. I’ll do my very best to please you. I don;t want you to be sad and numb.
“I’m glad you do. You’ve done no wrong. It’s me.
“Okay. I love you. I really do. I’m so excited and happy we’re together. I love taking you on dates and being with you honey.
“I love you and I never doubt you love me.”
“I’m sitting here worried about us and loving you so much. I don’t want to lose you.”
“I love you. I’m not going anywhere. We will make it work.”
We’ve hit a bump in the road but I believe everything’s fine. I ended up calling her on the phone and we talked about everything. I believe we will be fine. I love Cherie so much. She’s the sweetest woman I have ever met. She’s so much younger that me. I like that, but she has experience in life. Being a mother and a student.
I know she’s going through her growing pains in this relationship but I think she sees the value in us being together. There’s distance, but I know she understands the joy we feel when we’re together.
New for both of us.
Strong and sustaining.
Can’t wait to see her again.
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