It’s so hard now. But it’s not.
Cherie is incredibly frustrated sexually.
After her chilly behavior last time I saw her she’s warmed up to a boil.
I actually don’t like this behavior.
She’s pissed at me and is very reserved and then when we work it out she’s angry, frustrated and horny.
I can’t see her for two weeks and there’s nothing I can do about it. Why say it if there’s NOTHING I can do to satisfy you for two weeks?
It’s just nonsense.
We met up two weeks ago but she was on shark week and she won’t let this shark swim, because I would. I have never minded if a girl was a her period. If she was willing to be with me I was always happy to accommodate. Just low self-esteem and happy to have sex.
I’ve always been okay with the human condition and anomaly. I learned it early from my dad from all of the books he made me read.
I’m really fine with all human functionality no matter how gross. I’ve always adored women and I find no aspect of them gross. I embrace their strength to deal with the monthly aches and pains of sloughing off the walls of their uterus as another precious egg goes to waste.
Men have millions of sperm their whole life. Women on the other hand are born with a finite number of eggs and that’s it. That’s why the clock starts to chime in their late twenties. It’s just human nature.
I totally get it. That’s why my last three relationships ended.
They just needed to settle on some guys that were willing to commit to them for the rest of their lives and roll the dice of marriage and parenthood.
I’ve already been to that table in the casino of life and I lost big time. I won a beautiful daughter that I absolutely adore but it cost me a fortune in money and pain for decades. I will never go through it again.
I had taken her to the movies and did everything I could to warm her to me but she was chilly again.
She later texted me and apologized for being cold to me.
I’ve done all that I can to be sweet to her.
I called her and we spoke on the phone and I did everything to iron it out.
I think it worked, because we seemed to be back in gear again.
She was supposed to come down in two weeks. I knew what I needed to do to satisfy her and re-connect.
There were texts and sweet words. I knew we’d be fine if I could just get there and satisfy her.
Achilles called me Friday night and asked if I could work on my day off from 11 to 1pm. I checked with Cherie and she said she wouldn’t be down until 2pm so I told him yes. He had two new clients coming in for the gym so that would be great and we need that. I told him it would be fine. I’d see Cherie after that when she came down and make love to her like she was the last woman on Earth.
I’m texting Cherie and it’s all good.
But then she says the Saab is shaking. I don’t know what that means but it can’t be good.
She says she’s worried about the car and that it could be its end. That’s not good. But she says that she could possibly borrow her folks car and come down.
I’m fine with all of this and tell Achilles that I can stay the afternoon if he needs me on Saturday.
Achilles trained his new clients and it went well. But the best part was, for the first time in many months we got to just hang out. I worked until 3pm before I clocked out.
Cherie said she’d be down by 6:30.
So I basically spent the day with Achilles and we got to talk and have a fun day together. We’re remodeling the bathroom so we were focused on that. A father and son team came in and bought the two urinals we don’t need. They plugged the pipes and took the two units and cleaned up.
We want to clear the space and put a shower in there for the gym so it was perfect.
It felt like the old days just hanging with my friend and working at the salon on a Saturday during the busy season with nothing to do other than take good care of my beloved that night for a few hours.
I actually for the first time told him about Cherie. Normally we are pretty private about our romantic lives but I figured it was time.
He said it sounded like the perfect relationship for me.
Which it is.
A beautiful fit girl who’s so sweet and sexual and isn’t around all the time. I know that may seem alien to some of you, but I have so many failed relationships, this life with Cherie has been perfect for me. The very best.
Distance. Time. Lust. Satisfaction. Love. Distance. Distance. Time. I really love her and the dynamic.
What man wouldn’t want a hot young wanton woman to come see you and tear you to pieces and then leave? Then you can go back to your life of work and social life with out the trappings of the clingy relationship.
Even my female friends agree this is the perfect relationship for me.
I adore Cherie. She’s truly the apex of any woman I’ve ever know. But will it work long-term?
Probably not based on my past but I have to try. I’ve done everything I can to sustain this relationship but lately it’s been strained.
I get a text in the afternoon that her son’s father has bailed on spending time with him today.
That’s not good, but I really don’t know the full scope of the situation up there in Pottstown, 40 miles away.
I spend the whole day with Achilles and we actually have a great day just hanging and working at the salon together just like old times. I clocked out at 3 but continue to work for free until closing.
I’m just happy we can hang and work and chat.
I finally go home. I clean up the house and make everything fresh for the arrival of my love.
I text her.
“How are things going?”
“I’m ready to jump off a ledge these kids are making me lose my mind.”
“I thought you were coming down at 6:30.”
“OMG. no, I said I might be able to because of my kid. his dad canceled so I don’t have a babysitter.”
“Oh fuck. I’m sorry honey.”
“OMG it’s my fault WTF I’m an idiot.”
So I cracked open a bottle of Burnett’s and some club soda and watched Netflix.
*Sigh. I don’t know if Cherie and I are going to make it.
We both work so much I don’t know if this love can sustain itself.
I love her so…
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